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Tuesday, August 03, 2004
Alright... so it's been a little while since my last update.
So, I'm going to Tell of my trip at Wisconsin Dells, and see how much I actually detail about it. And yess... that sentance was phrased that way in my mind.
Thursday, 7/22/04-Packed and went to Nicole's. We... painted our nails and basically went to bed... which, I didn't even sleep for a freaking hour because I kept getting laid on... T.T0 and I was against a wall.. so.. that sucked....
Friday- Went to the Dells... and well... We were given the *wrong* room from what they had ordered.. so we just went out and went swimming and stuff 'till we were able to have our real room.
Saturday- Went on the Ducks and got a tour of the dells.. and... I can't remember much else other than having Nicole's family members scam their way into our room... thus our room's occupants went from 7-13.
It
Was
HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It totally reminded me of how much I really *hate* kids at times... -sighs-
Sunday- Was hell..... We went to riverview waterpark.. I went on a carnival ride, got sick, and went back and forth from being fine and sick for 5 hours while being stuck there. Also, everyone liked to lite a new cigarrette/smoke around me.. which I'm allergic to cigarrette smoke, so- they all suck.. all.. like.. 20 of them...
And then... to get back to the hotel.. I was a third wheel and left behind.
So yes, I left with people I didnt want to be with to get back to the room.
A good 3 hours of sleeping ensued.
Monday- Went to Noah's Arc, got a tan, and went home.
By the time we were in Brookfield (which, where we were, it would take 15 minutes to get to my housE) it took us about... a freaking half hour/45 minutes because our *sooo* absolutely wonderful *driver* ($%$#%) was going 20/25 MPH is like... zones that were 30/40 MPG speed limit zones.
So... I was about to go insane and cry.
I really hate that woman.. *aurgh*!! All she could do was smoke and give me a hard *time*!
-sighs-
8/2..Sunday- Well, I went out with Bonnie on a 'joy ride' and experienced... things that are unexplainable. and insane person, Krystal and ROAD RAGE!!!! and... a lot of cussing.
8/2- Monday- I decided to go watch shopping and application hunting, so after not being able to go with Roseanne and Alyssa (the latter having a *lame* excuse like *normal*..and I can say whatever I want here since it's how I feel -annoyed-) I called up Luann and asked her if she'd come with me, and she said yes. So, I picked her up and we went and did as I was planning, and then we decided to have some ice cream, so we ended up going to Oberweis (which I have no idea what town it's even in) and I got a cappaccino thingy drink and it was awesome. So, after that I decided to bring Luann to our new church and just let her see it. Well, we were lucky that 3 people were still there working on the building, and so, I gave luann a tour of the place =D She was completely amazed by the whole thing. It was nice. Also, all night she was very appreciative of me saving her from being bored, since she had absolutely *nothing* to do, and so I was able to save her from a boredom-fated death. And so, after going to the church I picked up Greg from work and dropped Luann home before going home myself.
I have to say, I'm glad I was able to hang out with Luann, since if it had been any opther situation and we were stuck at her house.. I wouldn't have had any idea as of what to do with her there, and we had fun just talking about stuff. I think anime was brough up once, and it was about Fruits Basket since she informed me that I had lent her my Frubu vol 1 and I totally had forgotten what I'd done with that thing n.n0
And so, that was my self-induced adventure, having caused my mom to be worried though, since I left unnannounced at around 8...8:30 and didn't come untill around 10:30/40.
Bwaha
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Current Song- Detective Conan Theme, Start
Current Mood- Accomplished
Posted at 02:53 am by HaruKitsune
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Thursday, July 22, 2004
Well, this week I am in a *far* better mood than before. I just go through the craziest blah blah blah.
So... I guess I could start with some... crap and crap...
I have no clue if my scanner's going to work properly...
I've oekaki'd a lot and my style's been changed a tad to be a *lot* more clean.. and.. gyah~
It's painful on the hand/wrist.
The other day I got 'employed' to work as Assistant Manager at this Hot Spring on Gaia- http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=3058027&postdays=0&postorder=asc&start=750
of course... that's the current page they're on at the moment...
I've also been struggling to figure out a new 'banner' so to speak for my signature there..
Uhm...honestly I don't have much to say except that Pastor Jeremy's going to be moving on to a new church sooner or later.... And.... uh... I'm going on vacation tonight through monday....
Otherwise... there isn't much else for me to say~.......
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Current Mood- Das Wandern (because I have no mood right now. Just.. fine.)
Current Music- B'z, Ultra Soul
Posted at 04:49 pm by HaruKitsune
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Friday, July 09, 2004
I'm feeling a bit like Kyou from Fruits Basket right now, where, he's always shut out from the other's who have the same problem he does.
It's quite painful and frustrating.
Currently I'm depressed because I haven't really done much of *anything* this week, and I want to go out @#$@#%^!!!
Alyssa has a job now, Bonnie can never come over, I don't know what to do when hanging out with Roseann or Luann alone, Ashley, Brittany, and Rachel live far away, so I can't hang out with them either.
I feel virtually friendless, my only friend being my cat, and my brother.
I'd like to hang out with Nicole more often, but I never really even think of that.
In all of my life, I can't think of a time where I felt so alone like I have this summer.
Alone, bored, and being lazy and useless.
I hate it, it sucks, and I want to be able to socialize, as a person in general, though I can be anti-social, my real personality is to be social.
Just like Kyou.
I'm afraid of people, so I don't know how to talk to them, or what to do. I need to build my social skills, but it hasen't happened over the past 5 years.....
My social skills went straight down, and plus, that was during grade school, where people isolated me and never tried to get to know me, so it hurts and kind of sucks that it's still like that.
I just want a friend, or maybe a *few* friends that I can *actually* depend on, know that they'll be honest with me, be able to help console me when things get crappy or give me advice, and to not put up fake faces and so on so I'm blind as to how they're feeling..
it's all so... frustrating and crappy....
It *hurts* me when people do that to me.... when they pretend, or they're impatient with me.
I'm smart sort of school-wise, but my personality can probably set off people quickly (namely, alyssa) to just want to hit me...
It's hard for me to do much, to talk out since I always feel I'm going to be made fun of or sound stupid, and I shouldn't feel that way....
Well, I guess that's fine for now...
Solitude isn't always fun..
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Current mood- The world Sucks.
Current Music- none
Posted at 10:03 pm by HaruKitsune
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Tuesday, July 06, 2004
Well... today started out innocently...
I decided I actually wanted to go swimming at the public pool, so I asked Alyssa if she'd like to come with me.
She said yes, and so we were going to go in the evening- except it started to rain.
That's when everything sucked, because in every other town it was raining, except here in Westchester!!!
It wasn't until about an hour later (around 7:10) that is actually started raining!!!
So yes, by hopes for the day were dashed, thus I have done absolutely nothing, and everything and the world sucks.
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Current Mood:  Miffed
Current Music: Oh Angel (Fatal Fury)
Posted at 10:00 pm by HaruKitsune
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Friday, July 02, 2004
My vacation.
As you can tell, a crummy-ish color was used.
It fits my mood right now about the whole thing, of course, I've come home a day early, and my brother's probably a tad angry, but eh.
In summery, before I start- the extreme sum of the trips.
Tues- Day 1- We got there. The TV in the basement wasn't working so we were going crazy since we couldn't play DVD's or vid. games.
Wed- Day 2- Six Flags- Sucked
Thurs- Day 3- Didn't do much, ok
Friday- Day 4- Sucked and came home
Ok... so Tuesday we got there, and since Greg worked, he came later on in the day. He was very happy too- until he came to the realization of remember that the basement TV wasn't working.
That *completely* ruined his mood, and so Greg and I started begging to go out and buy a TV.
Wednsday we had made plans with Bonnie to meet up at Six Flags and be there for the day.
Well, I only have 4 dramamine (motion sickness meds) and I take 2 at a time. ...I ended up taking 2 before we even got into the freaking park!!! Then greg and I sat there for an hour and a half waiting for Bonnie, and so we finally started to go around since we figured she was in the park (since we were 45 min. late) and just didn't come back.
Well, during that hour and a half, I got nausious, and so, I took my last 2 dramamine and we went on-
the Whizzer, and the Raging Bull.
He also went on the Condor but I don't like that ride.
But yeah, after being there for about... 3-4 hours, and me beinf nausious the whole FREAKING time...
it sucked. And when Miranda's whiney, you just want to kill her.
-sigh-
ok, so Thursday we didn't really do all that much. Kinda just... chilled out... went over to my other grandma's and hung out there for a while and went out and got some ice cream.
Went home...
and basically from 1:30 untill... 10:30 this morning (friday) went in and out of consciousness, not really getting *any* real sleep, and was miserable.
Friday- So yes, after my wondeful sleepless night, we went to Gurnee Mills and got me a 2 piece bathing suit, 2 things of sandles, and then I left to meet my brother at suncoast. There I bought almond crush pocky, Tsubasa (A CLAMP ...crossover thing with mainly lii syaoron and sakura as main roles), and Shonen Jump.
Then I got a Starbucks thingie...
But before that I felt myself becoming ill- and it sucked!!!!
I thought I was going to just throw up, and my blood sugar dropped, so it was crappy. Then we went out to eat at Docker's while I still felt this way, and I had red beets, clam chowder, and then jumps shrimp- which I only ate 2 out of... 6.
After that we went home, and I tried to sleep it off, but once again I was completely unable to find comfort or rest for a good 2 hours before I got fed up and started making calls home to be picked up.
Well, I was finally, and here I am typing up my blog at 11:45 PM.
meh.
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Current Music- None
Current mood- blankish/frustrated/neh
Posted at 11:47 pm by HaruKitsune
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Sunday, June 27, 2004
Today started innocently enough...
At church, I ate, then did worship and at the beginning I thought I was gonna through up, but then during worship, I was fine untill the end, and then I was in extreme pain.
So... I then went over next door to the youth service to check it out- called The OS.
I... hated it...
*augh*.. I was in Edward's group!!! (Edward- is *not* normal, has no heigene, and what mmore needs to be said after that? -no.. deodarent.. :sob: - )
So... yes... that was church, and sadly, I missed a good normal service!! Pastor Dave did the parallel of Revalations and The Lion King!! (Which Bonnie had figured out back when I was in 8th grade- so about 3 years ago. And PD figured it out this morning- so I really wish I had been there instead now.... 'cause the OS was hideous...
And now...
The main presentation!!! Also...
I can tell you right off the bat, that Alyssa, Roseanne (maybe), and Bonnie are *sooooooo* going to make fun of me for this.
After church, I asked Greg if he'd go with me to Yorktown Mall to get the vol.3 Frubu manga, and vol.1 Chrno Crusade manga. So, while driving, we founf out there was a detour to yorktown- this was the first time we temporarily got lost. Luckily it was for only like... 5 minutes.
We then went in, went to Too Cool (who got some new CD's... they gots the Chrno Crusade Soundtrack, and the 3 Yugioh CD's....) and then Suncoast. Suncoast didn't have Chrno Crusade, (but one *hell* of a load of AzumangaDaioh (sp?)) but I got my frubu, and Vision of Escaflowne 1.
But then... the way home....
We... somehow managed to drive all the way out to Naperville, passing through Lisle.
So yes..... during that little trip I spazed because there were signs for the Tollway, and I'd never *been* on the Tollway, so I was flipping out.
Luckily we didn't have to go on there- so, after being on Ogden Ave. to Naperville, we turned around, and got back, and managed to find our way back home.
Yay.
I'm sooo tired ;.;
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Current Mood- TIRED!!!! 
Current Music- None
Posted at 04:49 pm by HaruKitsune
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Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Someday... maybe that prince won't come...
So today... I left pOnju Oekaki, and will be mving to a new Oekaki Board.
I just don't like it at pOnju anymore n.n0
A person said they didn't like me as much as an artist anymore because I was against gay marriage. But I guess that's how life is.
If life gives you lemons.. make lemon pie...
(Agumon said that u.u0)
So yeah. That's how it's been today/yesterday.
Unhappy.
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Current Mood- Everything Sucks.... 
Current Song- Relient K, Pressing On
Posted at 03:06 pm by HaruKitsune
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Monday, June 21, 2004
Today was interesting.
Anyways, yesterday, Saturday, I went to Alyssa's and hung out with her and Rachel.
I wantto mention that my yami (AKA Alyssa) is very verbally abusive towards me n.n0 it's really frustrating at times.. but being the soft easily breakable hikari I am, I just stick it out -sighs-
I.. don't really have much to say that I can think of except....
'He died as he lived... with his mouth wide open and splaying...'
McCloud
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Current mood- Strangely Happy 
Song- Yaida Hitomi, Innocent
Posted at 12:44 am by HaruKitsune
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Thursday, June 17, 2004
Yes... let me speak about the past couple of days...
Alright... so, Tuesday I worked it my church most of the day, helping Pastor Dave with his office stuff so that we could move to the new church, dubbed as the 'Grove Church'.
Later on, we *went* to the Grove church and worked there for another 3 or so hours. It wasn't terrible, and it was kinda nice.
which is pretty interesting.
 Moving on.
Today, well, Wednsday, started out alright like every other day...
Untill I got a phone cal from my old grade school friend Sarah.
Honestly I can't consider her a friend anymore because we barely talk (not out of choice, she just isn't able to call me a lot) and I haven't really had any kind of connection to her.
The last time we really hung out was while I was in 7th grade.. so, since I'm going to be a Senior in HS, I'd say at least 4 years have passed.
Man, it sucks.
Anyways, so the call was 'good and bad news'
Personally, I take it all as bad news.
First off, the 'good news' was that she was pregnant.
18 and pg, ok....
Anyways, the bad news was that if she didn't find a place to stay by Friday (this week?) that DCFS (or something) would put her somewhere she didn't want to go.
Why? Because she was going to get kicked out (before/after her graduation.. which is on the same day?) and she needs to find a place to stay. Otherwise, DCFS.
So, my mom talked to her.. and then that was that.
I think she wanted us to take her in... but we couldn't handle another person, let alone I couldn't handle her being here...
Then went to church... and that was nice.
So yeah, there's my crazy past few days.
All the other days before, but after June 4th, are irrelavant and B O R I N G boring.
But hey, I got to join the RP Tom would talk to me about at... some.. point... so, yeys!!
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Current song- Arise
Current Mood- Tired and a tad it upset/annoyed.
Posted at 02:52 am by HaruKitsune
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Monday, June 14, 2004
Alright, now that I'm *going* to get the hang of this....
Today I had to clean the house a bit... for.. whatever reasons...
But anyway
Well, Summer break started the 4th, it's the 14th now, and I'll tell you
I am B-O-R-E-D BORED.
Gaia can only do so much, I can't draw all the time, I don't *want* to be
on the computer the whole day.... but that's what ends up happening.
So anyways, last week was alright... a tad boring and frustrating.. but myeh~
Quote of the moment:
'Yes me... me.. me.. meme me...... Me too'
The song that's been haunting me and now I gots the lyrics!! yey's!
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daisuki to omou kara ne kizutsu ittari tomadottari
tsumetai hoho wo yose atte kokoro ga umareta
itsumo ima sugu ni aitai
It's because I love you so much that I hurt you, that I'm so confused
Coming close to your cold cheek, my soul was born
I always want to see you right away
mukuchi ni naruhodo suki yo yasashi sa doushitara mieru no
dakishimete motto tsuyoku atataka na mune wo shinjiru yo
sayonara solitia ashita he
I love you so much I can't speak, so how will you see my kindness?
Hold me tighter, I believe in your warm heart
Farewell, solitaire, to tomorrow
chiisana watashi dakara zenbu demo tarinai yone
nanni mo kakusanai te anata ni agetai
mada shiroi yoake wo miokutte
Because I'm so small, I give everything, but it's not enough
This hand, which can't hide anything at all, I want to give to you
We still have to see off the white dawn
konnani daiji na hito ni doushite meguri aetano to
itai hodo tsunagu yubi de sabishi sa kieme yume wo miru no
sayonara solitia
Why was I able to run across someone this important?
Holding on to these fingers that they almost hurt, I see the dream that
had disappeared into sadness
Farewell, solitaire
mou hitori jyanai kara ashita mezameru no anata to
Because I'm no longer alone, tomorrow awakens, and I'm with you
daisuki na hito dakara ne sobani iru mamotteru
anata he tsunagaru daichi ni umerete yokatta
Because I have someone whom I love so much, I'm here by your side, protecting you
I'm so glad that I was born on this earth that connects me to you
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Current Mood: Mixed
Posted at 08:55 pm by HaruKitsune
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