And it's a matter over something that will have to be addressed after christmas- otherwise, all of the problems are in another blog. Which, very few people I'll allow access to read.

They're a victim of my personal inability to not tell them how I feel, and how angry I get with them.

Yet now I feel like a victim, for being all... ostracised by their friends because of these feelings.

It may not be what they're meaning to do, or even thinking they're doing it.

But they are.

I'm a victim of being unable to express myself properly, nor at the times I should, and so I get screwed over.

And you know what?

I'm tired of it.

And I wanted to forget about the problems, and just go to a nive conversation, or RP (which to some who may read this blog, may be really lame, but it helps to pass time.).

Well, obviously my presence is just, too much to deal with.

I'm sorry I bottle my emotions up, due to years of being rejected because of them.

I guess I just shouldn't talk to anyone who may be indirectly involved with my problems with others.

I shouldn't have even brought it up.

But they asked me to explain.

So I did.

So it's their own fault, and it's mine for telling them what my problems are.

I'm never going to again.

I don't know who I'll open up to ever again.

Probably just the usual people I talk to in real life.

the problems with online friends- is that if they're friends with the other party you're having problems with, they'll take sides.

And in this situation, since they've known the other party longer.

Guess what.

They're only on his side.

And I'm going to tell the other party, even though my side has strongly suggested not to, for years.

But guess what.

I'll just have EVERYONE ON BOTH SIDES MAD AT ME FOR EVER TELLING AND BRINGING IT UP, AND LET'S SEE JUST WHERE THE HELL THAT GETS ME!!!